The book describes the author's life before, during, and after his experience with the Legion of Christ -recently morphed into Regnum Christi Federation- a then relatively unknown Catholic religious order until the Founder's sexual abuse and double-life hit the headlines in 2009. Born of good Catholic stock in Dublin, Ireland, the author was one of the very first Irish youth to join the enigmatic order which gained the confidence and support of successive popes. He tells his story, attempting to understand the motives and the meaning of his troubled life in the Legion, how he finally extricated himself from what he would later believe was a cult-like environment, and how he re-made himself after a harrowing mid-life crisis. A cautionary but hopeful tale which may help others with similar experiences.